PAGAN ICONS
   1. I HAVE
   2. COMMUNITY LIE
   3. EFFORT TO WASTE
   4. MAD AT THE CO.
   5. I AM RIGHT
   6. WE DON'T NEED FREEDOM
   7. SUCCESS AND FAILURE
   8. A HUMAN CERTAINTY

 


I Have
pages turn
my stare burns
the conflict of logic
the crowd stands in awe

screen in a speakeasy
a man in black
we've addressed many times
and call on now

thought occurs
I've been here before
hear his words
I've seen him somewhere
the vision haunts
I know him somehow
as I tear my mind
I've been here before

never has power risen so
as we lay our bodies to the butcher called
patriotism
another shot heard round the world
but this time, literally
as I fall slain by faith
I can almost hear liberty say
I have loved just this once
but have lived and died many times

history books
we were so young
we were so strong
that's what they taught us

baring in mind
it's only a book
I close it and walk out
wide eyes and all

think out loud

 
 
Community Lie
it was just the community lie
that's why we never felt any guilt
for the times we ridiculed her
we knew she wasn't any worse than
the rest of us

no one ever calls a man a whore
that was the only defense she had
we never took time to hear her out
we were too busy looking for fault

that's when she fell to her knees
who is it I'm living to please
that's when she fell to her face
that's when she

it was just a community lie
that's really all it was
we never thought she'd take it this far
what does it matter it'll happen again
of course
it was justice

 
 

Effort to Waste
drunk on the blood
stuck to the rug
he vomits nostalgia
as the casualties
watch him seethe
with careful curiosity
with a raw dialogue
and effort to waste
he gives his sermon
but his words are pointless
to the sober conscious

they breathe the same air

all is mind as mind is all
flesh is stone as stone is flesh
pain is real as real is pain

in a sad awakening
he finds a window
god it's morning

all thoughts pierce
as memories are scarce
and the cuts have dried out

but  the terror of
the night he lost
still hangs his head low

drunk on the rug
stuck to the blood
he vomits nostalgia

I waited for so long
for something to seem real
I had so many questions
I answered all my questions
when I seen your face turn
and I knew what was real
and I knew what was lost
yes I knew
what was real

 
Mad at the Co.
I'm tired of being called a production slave
damaged soul working these hours
they shut us off they're inhumane
they're not our friends laughing at the bosses
jokes
they couldn't care less
if we tried our best
as long as we put our sweat
into their nice packages

they try to convince us
that they are not against us
we know they're lying
what's the use

 
I Am Right
you were always cumming like the game you'd play
as your mindless kindless friends would say
you got what you wanted but not what you needed
no matter how hard you pleaded
you're eighteen and you know it all
so how in the hell could you ever fall
who taught you about drugs and kept you out of school
isn't that right

I am right
I am right
I am right
no one no one is gonna tell me otherwise
no one no one is gonna fill this boy with lies

the trashcan jazzman really was a has been
though you laid him down like he was the last man
though your family never took it calmly
when they pulled the covers you were in jeopardy
with your back in a brace and your arms in a sling
your doctor saying haven't you had your fling
well you gave all your time to the protest line
but what did you get from screaming screaming screaming

I am right
I am right
I am right
I am right
no one no one is gonna tell me otherwise
no one no one is gonna fill this boy with lies

so forth and so forth you really had a cold heart
once on your knees you weren't such a bad sport
you started crying when they caught you lying
no one ever said you weren't trying
with your mind on the freeway your mouth on a cliché
you had your rations of middle class fashions
but do painted slogans really say

I am right
I am right
I am right
I am right
no one no one is gonna tell me otherwise
no one no one is gonna fill this boy with lies

 
We Don't Need Freedom
we don't need freedom
we don't need freedom
we don't need freedom

freedom is what ruined your brain
with creativity drugs and pain
freedom is what let you run wild
explain freedom to your fatherless child
we don't need freedom
do we now

freedom preaches disobedience
idiot rebellion false allegiance
pride waste lust and greed
we're free to obey all of these
comfortably that's how we'll be
enough for you plenty for me
we won't need actors and rock stars
all we'll want is farmers and soldiers

we don't need freedom
we don't need freedom
we don't need freedom
we don't need do we

 
Success and Failure
delicate moment
saw you again
leap year summer
presence drew in
flies of success
squandered about
ritual fashion
leaving no doubt
you were a hit
plain to see
busy boulevard
hidden street
I prayed lightly
weaved my path
raise no question
how I survived
the aftermath

but I see no reason to covet
cause I'm just thinking
it all seems so amusing
failure and success

laugh the day
meet again
end up on park bench
exactly where
I'm at now
unnoticed
wonder how
bargained your way
packs that bleed you
no thoughts
what they've made you
success has sewn
a hand to your back
paid what price
for the path
we traveled

but I see no reason to covet
cause I'm just thinking
it all seems so amusing

failure and success
success and failure
failure and success
success and failure
failure and success
success and failure

 
A Human Certainty
don't come in here
you'll see something ugly
it's not the kind of thing
you'd expect from a body

don't come in here
don't see me this way
with my knees on rice
and a prayer for the prey

my face is heavy
my mind is clenched
my eyes are disgusted
my hands are hot
my walls are green
my walls are red
I only cry wolf
when all my sheep are dead

don't come in here
I beg of you
yes there's love in my heart
but no hatred in my thoughts

don't believe in me
or anything that speaks
for you won't be deceived
by a human certainty

my face is heavy
my mind is clenched
my eyes are disgusted
my hands are hot
my floors are green
my floors are red
I only cry wolf
when all my sheep are dead

last night I had a dream about you
and in my dream you were only asleep
I sat in a chair and watched you
as you laid there so beautifully
the still of the night made me lonely

I wanted to touch you I wanted to feel you
I wanted things to be just like they used to be
except I'd keep all my promises
then I felt so ashamed

I was so ashamed
until I realized we're all guilty of that dream
and forever I wish you
 a beautiful sleep

 

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